"I Know That You Are For Me"

As I listen to Kari Jobe's "I Know That You Are For Me", I think of all of the times that I have refused Your love, God, and I remember all of the times that I have felt like I let You down. Still, somehow, no matter how many times I turn away, no matter what wrongs I have made, You never leave my side. You have always been there, and are always here; it is just up to me to trust You with all of me.


There have been plenty of times in my life when I trusted, or felt like I needed someone to prove that love is true, and real. When really, all I needed/need to do, is turn to God. His love is the only everlasting love. The only unconditional love. The only love that will always stay true, no matter what storms may threaten to break you down. 


God, I realize, and know that You found me. You picked me up and carried me under Your loving wings throughout all of my life; through all of the storms, and rainy days. Father, I know that every night that I cried myself to sleep, I was crying on Your shoulders. You have always, always been there for me, and for me to even think about turning away from your amazing, everlasting, and true love, for a love so conditional, so unreal, and so untrue is such sin in itself. Though I cannot promise You, God, that this will never happen again, for I know that there will be many times in all my years to come that I will turn away from Your love, I can and must, do all that I can to stay faithful to You. You, God, are absolutely everything to me.

"I know that You are for me

I know that You are for me

I know that You will never forsake me in my weakness

I know that You have come down

Even if to ride upon my heart

To remind me who You are"

God is Love

There are so many things that I need to work on. Not just things to make me a better person, things to help me love myself. Though the past couple of days have been absolutely fantastic, I have also learned quite a bit about myself. Here are some things that I have learned:

• I had never truly thought about love, and how much of an impact it has had on my life.
• Intimacy with God is so much more than "quiet time"; it is an everyday, all day commitment.
• I will never really be ready to be in a relationship.
• I have, in fact, no matter how much I have denied it, for the past few years, depended on being in a relationship with a boy to make me happy.
• I do not need to be in a relationship with a boy to make me happy. I need to be in an intimate, personal, relationship with God. --That makes me happy.
• I have this mindset that I can never be anything more than what I already am, unless I learn to love who I already am. Only then, will I be able to carry on, learn more, and become more; otherwise, I feel incomplete.
• For the longest time, I have told people to "prove me wrong", when really, I could do that myself!
• I think about situations too much. 
• Sometimes I care too much; I'm not sure yet if that's a bad thing.
• When I say "It's whatever." I usually mean, "It's hurting me inside. I just don't want to seem weak."
• When I focus on strengthening my relationship with God, there is almost no way for me to think about the negative situations in my life.

God has shown me so many different things about Him, myself, and my life. I am amazed at how little I know about myself, and how much God knows about me!! Everyday, He reveals a little more about who He wants me to be, and everyday, I learn a little bit more about how I can become who He wants me to be. I will say, without hesitation, God is love.

God is Good!!

I was going to blog, except there are a million things going through my head all at one time; I can barely comprehend my own thoughts, I'm sure it wouldn't do you any good to read them!!

 I just wanted to say that God is good!! He works in so many ways and through so many people. He is always so faithful, and is always there for me (and you) to lean on in our times of need! Remember though, that you shouldn't only turn to God in extreme cases of happiness or sorrow. Turning to God should be something that you do, just as often as you would turn to your best friend. Turn to Him when you're happy, or sad. Turn to God when you're bored, and ask Him to entertain your heart and soul!! Turn to God when you're not really happy, and not really, sad, just barely making it through the day. Turning to God should be something that you do so often, you shouldn't even have to think about making it happen, it just happens. And when you do turn to God, turn to Him with such love and sincerity, because turning to Him with evil intentions will get you nowhere. God is oh so good, and is working wonders in my life!! What is He doing for you?

I wish talking to you was easier ♥